It’s been awhile. It’s been a busy couple of weeks. I studied my ass off for finals, took the finals, moved out of NYC and up to Albany, visited with friends up here, went to a bridal shower downstate, attended that brides wedding in NJ, picked up my sister from school in Connecticut, and now I’m back in Albany. For a few hours anyway. I’m headed back to NYC to visit some friends and go to yet another bridal shower. On top of all that I’m still looking for a job!
While in Albany I’ve been spending a lot of time with my mom. My mom and I have clashing personalities. I just get so annoyed with her so fast over the stupidest little things. The last few weeks have been hard on her and she’s been taking it out on me. “It isn’t very difficult to see why you are the way you are. It’s doesn’t take a genius to realize that sometimes life is hard.” I know things are tough but passive aggressive behavior doesn’t solve it. It just makes it harder for everyone else. I know that things will get better but right now I just want her to leave me alone. I need a break from my own mother. I figured that by going away for college things would get better, but they haven’t. “And I don’t want to hear you tell yourself that these feelings are in the past. You know it doesn’t mean they are off the shelf because pain is built to last.” Hopefully, one day soon, we’ll both ‘heal over.’
“Come over here lady
Let me wipe your tears away
Come a little nearer baby
Coz you'll heal over
Heal over
Heal over someday”
Lyrics by KT Tunstall – Heal Over
2 comments:
awww everything okay??
p.s.- im glad your back to blogging =]
it's just been a hard few weeks being home. I desperately need a vacation! I'm glad I'm blogging again too. :)
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