Survivor

The dude I’ve been ‘hanging out’ with, Doug, got a girlfriend today. I’m kind of bummed, kind of not. He’s cheating on her so I guess he’s really a scum ball, but he’s so damn hot. And I’m not the one he’s cheating on. I don’t think it’ll last very long. This is the guy who liked the facebook group “Exes that made you think you were drunk the whole time.” I do semi feel badly for her. Although she’s already playing the bitchy obsessive girlfriend, so maybe I feel bad for him?

I have officially nine more days of NYU; freshman year. And about five of those days will be spent studying my ass off. It’s crazy to me, that nine days left and I still have drama to deal with. People should be making up or minding their own business, not causing drama. Pee had a show Sunday. Me and Veen went, but Jay decided she had other things to do. Keep in mind this is the chick who wants to BE Pee. Jay told P that she had to study. But she was sleeping when I left. So instead of supporting her roommate and the person she wants to pretend to be best friends with, she slept. Great. “I ain't never met a girl that does the things that you do. Change don't come your way it will come back to you.”

I went to this damn show and me and Pee are notorious on our floor for having our disagreements. But I know how it feels look into the crowd and not see someone who you know, someone who supports you. Jay is a bitch. Plain and simple. So now there is the silent treatment in the dorm. And honestly, I don’t really mind. If they aren’t talking, they aren’t talking about me.

Jay also decided to do laundry at 11 PM. It takes 2 hours to do it, minimum. Is it just me, or is that incredibly inconsiderate? Who says I want to stay up? I don’t I was up till 3AM with Doug last night and had to wake up at 6AM. I’ve been up for 17 hours with three hours of sleep. I don’t want to have to wake up every half hour to you doing laundry, with my detergent, and 1 AM. I want to go to bed. Honestly, I’d like to be in bed right now. But I have to deal with inconsiderate roommates. What happened to doing laundry at a normal hour? Jay, “For women like me who try to have some integrity, you make it hard. For girls like myself who respect themselves and have dignity.” Guess some people aren't the sweet girls you thought they were.

Lyrics courtesy of Destiny's Child, Nasty Girl

Botanical Gardens

Just some pics I took:

Save Me, San Francisco

So I can’t really tell what kind of mood I’m in today. Normally the kind of music I listen to reflects how I’m feeling, but today it was all over the place. I listened to some Sean Paul, Spice Girls, Cheryl Cole, John Mayer, Santogold. It’s been a weird music day. But the actual day was pretty normal. How utterly boring.

This weekend, though it has yet to happen, will be the start of my 10 days of hell. But I will get to see some people I haven’t seen in years and I’m really excited and happy about that. It really makes me remember how much I miss my friends. And how cool is it when the people you haven’t talked to in forever pick up conversation like it was just yesterday that you last saw them? That’s the mark of a good friend they say. I don’t agree but for now it works.

This random guy, a very white preppy guy might I add, on the subway was singing this:

“You're so gangsta, I'm so thug, you're the only one I'm dreaming of.”

So I joined in with the rest of the song. I’ll leave you with it:

"Hey soul sister, ain't that Mr. Mister on the radio, stereo, the way you move ain't fair, you know!


Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do tonight.


Hey soul sister, I don't want to miss a single thing you do...tonight."

3 Door Down

It really bothers me when people take out their bad days on you. I understand that your day sucked and you are in a shitty mood, but suck it up. That’s not my fucking problem. Be civil when you get around other people because all your bullshit serves to do is put more people in a bad mood. Stop spreading the hate, I mean damn!

Moving on...

The last few days have been really stressful. Between classes, schoolwork, out of class NYU events, studying for tests, writing four essays, taking other peoples shit, dealing with a stalker( I won’t elaborate), and planning a wedding (not my own); life has been just a little more than I can handle. I already had a bunch of grays hairs sporadically spread across my scalp but now I’m, growing a full-blown patch. If I was vain I’d be upset but, seeing as I am weird and think they are cool, it’s all good. I just don’t like the process I go through to get them. It’s been a rough week and it’s only Tuesday! I’m ready to collapse, but you got to keep on trucking.

“Cause it's not my time, I'm not going.

There's a fear in me and it's not showing.

This could be the end of me,

And everything I know, oh, but I won't go.”

- Not My Time, 3 Doors Down

I officially have 22 days left of school. And “There's a will in me and now it's gonna show.” It’s time to pull out the brakes. I have to stop procrastinating cause there is no longer any time to procrastinate! Get'r done!, as my grandpa would say.

Indiana

I’ve been sitting on the floor of the lounge in the basement of my dorm studying and, obviously, typing this since 7 AM. Last night we had seniors from high school who are coming to NYU next year staying in my dorm so I was up til 2 AM. Normally five hours of sleep would not be anywhere near enough sleep but seeing as that is more than I’ve gotten in one night for the last two months, I’m feeling good. I have a lot of energy today, which is good. I’ll need it. I seem to have more work due next week than I am capable of completing. Plus I have to do all the things they expect of me for outside of class. It’s just a lot to wrap my head around. Normally I’d be freaking out, but I feel really calm. “After all we’re only human.” I have stopped trying to comprehend the load I have to tackle and just dived right into it. Taking ample breaks along the way, of course. I haven’t really gotten much accomplished, but I feel like I have so it keeps me going. We’ll see how the rest of this week turns out for me. We’ll see if what I intend to do is actually accomplished. “All these ups and downs, they trip up our good intentions, nobody said this was an easy ride.”

As I was sitting down here this guy came in and asked me if he could run around the room. I wanted to ask him why he wasn’t running outside when it is finally not raining, but I just let him do what he needed to do. It was so odd to see someone run in circles around you while you are trying to study. But he was only there for fifteen minutes. Life in a NYC dorm! No place to be alone. Ever. Even at 7AM.

So now I must get back to work. I might include a picture later in the week of some really awesome orchids I saw being sold on the street in Union Square. If I have time! The song lyrics were from Jon McLaughlin's Human, by the way.

Put Your Records On

This morning was a deceiving morning. It looked like it would be a beautiful spring dress kind of day, but then you step outside and it’s cold and windy.

This morning was also a wonderful beginning. I slept in, then made plans for later, then got food and set on my way. I went out to Central Park and took some really cool pictures of people. It’s like people watching to the extreme, taking pictures in Central Park. There so many people doing so many things, wearing so many things, talking about so many things. It’s really a nice place to be on a Sunny day. I got lost around the area and found this cute little café. It was great. I had the most delicious pomegranate white tea. I was “sipping tea in a bar by the roadside, just relaxed, just relaxed.”

Tomorrow my RA is hosting a day out a well. My roommates all think it’s stupid and “who would want to go to that shit” but that’s why they are so isolated from the floor. Plus, it’s free food! Why the hell wouldn’t I want to go! So I signed up. It should be fun because I absolutely love my RA and I get to eat and I get to know people from my dorm all at the same time. It’s lie killing three birds with one stone! Well, I think the saying is two birds but I have three to kill so I’m going to say what I want. “You don’t even have to try any longer, do what you want to.” And do what I want. So what if Pee thinks tomorrow will be stupid.

Right now I’m listening to music in my dorm and waiting for later plans to start. I had two hours so I thought I’d write this before the day was out for once. I’m pulling a Corinne Bailey Rae right now. “Girl put your records on, tell me your favorite song. Just go ahead let your hair down.”